Something I fear.

Having that long talk with Kak Dania/piano teacher, was really a bittersweet moment. sigh.
Cause I had no mood to play the piano, on the other hand that convo was really just and 'urgh' thing to hear for a girl who hasn't gone pass her first trial of spm. hahaha.

Kak dania's taking music, so she explained how you would have to perform and study all at the same time, inside I was just like isn't that school?
It really gave me this whole, holy shit feeling and I said I needed the counsulor.
I thought I could just go to mom striahgt for that part. But mom went straight to,
"Of course Trina, who said it was ever easy?".
Yea, okay thanks. That was help alrgiht.

But when Kak Dania did mention, even kids who has never had any music background what so ever, took piano and just had to force themselves to learn from scratch.
That gave me hope. Just a bit.
I guess, whatever you choose even if it's new to you, work your ass off till there's no ass left.
If you fear, you stop, you stop, there's nada in the end.
Sounds old fahsion, but god how it's so true.

Well, I guess I've just got to shut up, and just go.
Sounds so like my dad.
As old fashion that man is, he breathes that line so well. That, that's the only reason there's food on the table. I wish I had more of that of my papa, instead of his temper and his short genes. But, maybe along the way I'll find it within me somehow. Except fot the genes, I gave up on that.
The word of the day, Hard work and Aim. Those are two things, that gives you that drive that you'll need to succeed.

As for me,
It's 3.
Hard work, aim and passion.
If it's performing arts I want, then performing arts I will.

Okay, I know I'm crapping here.
But give me some credit here, it's in my head.
Gotta let it out.
If only I could tell you in detail of what was really going through my mind, then I wouldn't sound so drama queen not making sense like.
But, I won't cause I malas to type. :D


Oh well, toodles my noodles.